I Remember...

I remember everything.

The warmth of your body, the smell of your skin. The way your hand slid down my arm. The way your fingers entwined perfectly with mine. Your lip turned up ever so slightly when you were trying not to smile.
My clothes smelled like you constantly. Hours of lying on your chest, talking, kissing.
Oh, your kisses....

Everything in me knew that it was wrong. But everything in me wanted it to stay just the way it was. There was no future, nothing but the present feeling of loving you.

I feel this separation like a death. Don’t push me away.

Stepping backwards. I need clarity. Why must you be perfectly fine? I wish for my sake that this was killing you as much as it is killing me.

I don't know why I let it go too far,
Starting over - it's so hard.
Seems like everywhere I try to go,
I keep thinking of you. - Mario